Sarah, thank you for this. I agree 100% that fake PCR "tests" are the lynchpin. Serology-based antigen and antibody "testing", also. I have spent SO. MUCH. TIME. over the past 4 years telling co-workers, family, friends, and total strangers that the tests are absolutely meaningless BS. Even people who have awareness of the truth re: the “pandemic” still believe the results are credible. I highly recommend PANDA, as well. It was data analyses and other information from PANDA in 2020 that really opened my eyes to what was actually going on.
As a medical laboratory scientist employed in hospital labs, forced to perform rapid NAAT methodologies to “diagnose” SARS-CoV-2 for more than 2 years, I was stressed to the point of breaking. Performing those tests meant I was helping to falsely elevate “covid” case numbers, and if any of the patients with a worthless “positive” result died for any reason whatsoever, the COD would be “covid.”
Adding to my frustration and anger was the fact that none of my colleagues - most of whom had also studied and performed PCR and other NAAT methodologies - seemed to grasp why it was a misapplication of the technology. I was constantly talking about the non-diagnostic nature of PCR, not to mention the high threshold cycles being used. I was met with blank stares or shrugs every time I pointed out that Ct (threshold cycle) is inversely proportional to viral load. Or that finding the target nucleic acid sequence (if that is what the primers were even designed for) in the sample and then amplifying it to detectable levels is not synonymous with infection. Even though I did not trust the WHO at the time, I pointed to the guidance for medical professionals issued in early 2021 urging providers to consider PCR "results" in the context of signs and symptoms, as well as cautioning against high threshold cycles. It was only half-truths, but I figured if the WHO was saying even this much, maybe I could get people's attention. (I read the guidance on the WHO website, but can no longer find it. It was probably memory-holed. They also said very early on that asymptomatic presentation of respiratory viral infections is extremely rare, before completely backtracking and flip-flopping. No one remembers that bit, do they?) No matter what I pointed out, my colleagues were all convinced of the validity of the results.
Some nights I was so overwhelmed by the volume of samples I’d receive for fake testing that my anger would overflow and I’d start throwing the specimen vials across the lab. The stress from early 2020 through Fall of 2021 was destroying me on every level.
Then I could no longer practice my profession in NY, because I refused to be injected. On very short notice, I found a job in another state and relocated 1,000+ miles from home, family, and friends in the hope that I could remain employed, though I had no guarantees regarding mandates. (Shortly after arriving in my new state of residence, the CMS "vaccine" mandate came down, affecting everyone in healthcare throughout the country. Then I had to play the exemption game, but I did not even have that option in NY.) The first two hospital systems I worked for also compelled me to do "covid testing", but I could not afford to lose another job, especially now that I lived someplace I had never been to before, and where I knew no one. I cried pretty much every day and lost a lot of sleep, because I was part of it all, even though it was unwillingly.
That was only a part of the ordeal, however. I can’t describe the anguish I felt as a blood banker, knowing I was facilitating the transfusion of tainted blood to those who chose not to be injected. Transfusion services was my passion, and I had a job offer to work exclusively in the blood bank at Mayo Clinic, but my offer was withdrawn when I refused, once again, to be injected with a deadly, gene-altering bioweapon. It was a blessing in disguise, though, because I could not have continued as a blood banker with a clear conscience. I also know now that Mayo, like other large healthcare systems, is extremely DEI/ESG. I spoke with a lawyer who had successfully sued Mayo to get alternative treatments for patients with a covid diagnosis. He said Mayo was using the shot mandate to weed out conservative - or dissident - individuals. And, like pretty much all of "healthcare" now, they are deeply invested in the disgusting profitability of "covid."
In late 2022, I finally found employment that requires neither “covid testing” nor blood banking so I don’t disintegrate from the unbearable strain of helping perpetuate the deadly deception. I have changed jobs 3 times in 2.5 years, not including the withdrawal of Mayo's job offer. Since I work in a captured "industry" I am mostly surrounded by the duped. With less job stress, I am able to focus more on getting real data and factual information to colleagues. Most days, it's still an uphill battle, but I can't stop fighting. I don't know if I'll ever be free of the guilt I feel for having been part of the machine for as long as I was.
Thank you for this. I am sorry to hear how difficult this ordeal has been for you.
I admire your strength…and honesty. It says a lot about your character. The world could use more people like you. There are so many people that are financially pinned into very uncomfortable positions.
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about this.
Most everyone on “this side” (although I hate reducing the situation like this) has participated in some way, and to some extent, despite disagreement.
I wore masks and tested because my clients requested this.
I allowed my children to be tested and forced to wear masks to attend school.
I will never forgive myself for this. Ever.
I eventually pulled them out and we homeschool now, but this took far longer than it should have because I just didn’t know how I could do it. I’m a single mom (I have a partner, but he also has two kids of his own). I own my own business and am almost entirely financially responsible for my three boys. I consented to a lot of things I didn’t agree with, and frankly knew were wrong, but I at the end of the day I have mouths to feed….which is a compelling motivator.
At the same time, due to the same circumstances, it’s very easy for me to say that I will absolutely not inject myself or my children with this bioweapon. At least easier than it is for a lot of other people.
Nobody will fire me. I might lose a client or two, but I’m not going to lose my entire income. Because I own my own business I had the flexibility to rework some things, got creative, and figured out homeschooling. I realize this is not the case for most people. Due to many factors that I won’t go into now, life now requires two incomes, particularly when children are involved. This aspect of the situation is heartbreaking, as I see it clearly baked into the recipe over the course of many years.
Even if spouses and children are not involved, people have to eat…and once you factor in the credit and finance situation, it’s not hard to see how the bind happened - and is happening.
I spoke to a nurse in my grandmother’s memory care facility, and with tears in her eyes she recounted the injections that were given, and the deaths that followed. This was echoed to me just this morning. A client had an almost identical conversation with a nurse at her father’s facility. It’s truly heartbreaking…and unspeakable evil.
Anyway…all that to say that I admire your honesty. I think a lot of people just find it easier to say they agree. It takes a huge amount of courage and humility to speak the truth.
I greatly appreciate your kind words and empathy. There’s even more to my story, but it is not unique, though details vary. Too many of us have suffered in so many terrible ways.
I am sorry for what you have gone through as well. Even for those who did not get injected or outright lose a job, the psychological impact of masking, “testing”, etc., is profound, especially when children are involved. Throw in some economic threat and legitimate fear about actual survival - it’s truly horrific. I also submitted to masking at work and more, though after a while I refused to keep up appearances when my manager left for the day. (She was quick to pounce on me for any infraction, and I had a bit of a track record of not being a meek rule-follower.) I left the mask dangling from one ear, because I was tired of feeling like I’d pass out while hustling around a busy, short-staffed lab. Colleagues remained masked, but weirdly didn’t complain.
Not having children, some things were easier for me. Still, faced with the inability to continue working in my home state, I began having panic attacks. I didn’t have enough information then, and didn’t know what to do. I pretty much ran on instinct and gut-feelings when deciding where to move to. It was brutally difficult and full-on terrifying to uproot my life and leave the only home I ever desired, to go live in a state I’d never set foot in, with no assurance of continued employment, but I had only myself, my partner, and our dogs to consider.
In those earlier days, there was still much I did not know about all of this. I was far from seeing the big picture. Somehow, I just knew there were certain things I could not do or accept. I’m not sure I can really take credit for that. It just WAS. My full enlightenment was a process of years, so my resistance grew the more I came to understand, but there were clearly also compromises. That’s what I have a difficult time with. I’m thankful I found it impossible to fully submit, and that I tried to resist within the system, so to speak. As you’ve mentioned, there are certainly compelling motivators that induce us to sometimes go along with things we disagree with or that we know are wrong. I can accept that for others, but struggle to accept it for myself. I wish I had seen things for what they really were and had bucked it all from Day One.
Out of the 30+ scientists in that hospital lab, I was 1 of only 5 who did not rush to get injected (to proudly display “vaccination” stickers on badges). Of the 5 of us who did not want it at all, only 2 of us held out to the bitter end. My dear friend, in his early 30’s with a wife and three young children, caved under pressure to save his job. After getting the first, he was distraught, angry, resentful. He railed about feeling backed into a corner. I was heartbroken for him. He didn’t want the second one, but caved again when faced with loss of employment. Shortly after that, the cardiac symptoms began manifesting. Then last year he told me that another of our colleagues who gave in - in her early 20’s and newly married - had conceived and lost the baby late in the pregnancy.
My partner, who was employed by a large Medicare and Medicaid insurance provider, was also subject to a “vaccine” mandate, despite working remotely. He talked of taking the shot to save his job. I had no facts to offer in August/September 2021, so I threatened to leave him if he took it. I would not actually have done it, but I was desperate to stop him. He believed I would do it, so he did not submit to the mandate. We relocated together and nearly a year of unemployment followed for him after we moved, but when I was able to start telling him about the devastating consequences of the injections, he was so glad I stopped him.
Though my current position is less stressful, I work for a company that helps perpetuate the covid scam, and that has profited in the billions from fake testing. At this point, it’s all but impossible to be in this profession and not be part of the system. As long as I’m stuck in it, I look for “insider” information that might be helpful in some way, hence my attempt to remain anonymous. I chose my profession to help others while indulging my love of science. Instead, conventional medicine in conjunction with pharma rarely does anything other than harm. If it was at all possible, I would start over in a new profession that would allow me to legitimately help others find true health and wellness.
Sorry, that’s a whole lot. Discovering the dissident community, sharing information, resources, and war stories with others who see the truth - this is what saved my sanity. I hope sharing my story here and there can help others in some way. I’m still trying to figure out if there’s something more I should be doing beyond being an alert, responsible citizen and trying to impart truth to others in my daily life. I’m glad to have found your stack, and I appreciate the work you put into this critical fight for our very survival. ♥️
Thank you for your honesty and courage to post this narrative of your life these last four years. I'm a retired MD and it's been obvious to me, almost from the beginning, that this was a fraud and hoax, later to understand that it was an elaborate deception to enslave and murder. Your comments are an important commentary on life inside the culling apparatus. It helps those of us on the outside to know there is resistance and awareness inside the culling machine.
Thank you so much for this. I pray that I can be of use from within. I keep trying to get through to colleagues, often to no avail, but I am seeing progress with a progressive colleague who took the shots and had her young children injected. (She is also one to speak disparagingly about those she refers to as "conspiracy theorists" - having no idea I am one of those people.)
After building relationship and trust with her, I began slowly feeding her data about the shots, as well as other frauds such as "climate change." After a recent share about the mounting evidence of harm, she decided not to let her kids receive boosters. She's also connecting what I tell her with illness and deaths among her friends and acquaintances, as well as her own increasing health issues. She gladly accepted info on spike protein detox. It's all baby steps.
I do think that my influence has helped save some kiddos from being injected. In fact, I know that it has. And that feels successful.
Ish.
Because there are plenty that I couldn't help. Their parents were and are brainwashed. It breaks my heart to hear about these innocent little bodies, with no choice in the matter, getting injected with poison that will impact them forever. This part feels like failure.
I'm so thankful for people like you, Sarah, who were able to get ahead of it in some instances, at least. Every child spared is important, though it grieves you - and me - that any have been harmed and killed.
Until the moment she said she would call her ex about not getting boosters for the kids, I didn't know they'd been injected. I wanted to cry. She still believes the "moving at the speed of science" malarkey as far as the deadly fallout. Like it's just the price to be paid for "doing the best we could with what we had to work with at the time." I'm nowhere near revealing truth in that regard. It frequently feels like I'm just spinning my wheels, the damage is already done. Then I remind myself that I don't know the future, nor what my words and actions may effect down the line. I'm taking it one opportunity at a time.
Baby steps forward is better than many of us are doing! Your work is very important and your patient approach is certainly far better than I can manage, as patience is not always a trait my wife, for example, applies to me. My experience, at least, is that one is most successful as you are doing, feeding bits of truth to what may be a receptive mind, trying not to push too hard, knowing that the truth is something people must arrive at by drawing own conclusions. Oftentimes, I believe, once an individual realizes that the authorities have knowingly propagated a big lie, all the rest falls into place pretty quickly.
"knowing that the truth is something people must arrive at by drawing own conclusions"
You nailed it right there. If I tried to give too much, too quickly to some people, their minds would reject it all. It feels surreal and overwhelming to me at times, despite researching and assimilating information for years. With fellow scientists, I have to know my audience. I try to lay a foundation first, so they understand the priority I place on good data and that I invest a lot of time in research and analysis. Then, there's a greater chance they will trust me, knowing I am passionate about science as a process of discovery and increasing understanding, as well as witnessing my demonstrated competence. But, I also fear there is not enough time left to make a difference as the op advances. I will not stop trying, though.
Liking this comment is not enough and i dont have the word to say how i feel for you and your situation....needless to say you are one of the good ones. 🙏❤️
Thank you for saying that, truly. Many of us have awful stories, it’s only the details that vary. I’m just grateful that I wasn’t among the brainwashed.
I can totally relate, Leithian, as a fellow med tech having gone thru this as well! I did the molecular testing as well as work in the blood bank (now since retired early). In our hospital system in Colorado we were afforded the ‘religious exemption’ for which we had to write a novel, unlike previous years’ FLU exemptions where all that was needed was your name, lawson number, and manager’s name on a form (and forced masking/discrimination from Dec-March 31)…. BUT in addition, we then had to ‘test’ twice a week for ‘covid’, nasal swabs…totally gave me the creeps putting an ETO sterilized swab up my nose over and over again. Then late January they did a ‘pause’ in testing for 2 weeks, mysteriously not restarting testing, and never revealed to us the reason!!! 😑 Hallelujah!
As I continue to do my good deed of donating my type O blood, I wonder why I am asked each time whether I got the jab or not, and what do they really do with my donation (of pureblood)….
Sorry for the grief you’ve been through and thankful that you wrote this up. I just happen to have come across this particular substack (having seen Sasha Latypova’s comment about it). Hang in there and stay strong! You rock!!!
DL, thank you for your kind comment. I think there were not enough of us who knew something was wrong and resisted. You are the first to share similar misgivings regarding the testing and blood banking. I honestly thought the mental and emotional anguish would destroy me. Thanks so much for the encouragement, and for being a blood donor! If someone started a donation system for “unvaxxed” blood, I’d work that blood bank in a heartbeat. Would you believe I miss doing antibody ID? Always the challenges and puzzles in transfusion services. I really miss it.
Hahahah, they terrify us all about blood bank! I think we were literally told at university that we would kill someone, like it was a fact. I was scared to do it, found out I was great at it, and ended up loving it. So challenging and rewarding. Problem-solving and critical-thinking are must haves. (Maybe why some of us who thrived in blood bank didn’t fall for the propaganda.) I’m glad they instilled that fear, though, because in this profession there’s no greater risk of actually killing your patient.
You had the opportunity to do cool stuff. Kudos to you. I hope you’re enjoying retirement. 🤓
Yes, I believe it (missing ABY ID). Even during my internship in MN I had the ‘fear of blood bank’ instilled in me and ever since found it to be the most challenging and most rewarding section of the lab to work. I was relegated to BB (and Hemo, Coag) since most techs could not handle it and subsequently got asked to learn/work Flow Cytometry for about 10 years which I loved! Did a stint in a molecular lab in 2006 and so learned about the shortcomings of PCR…at a time using a thermal cycler/clean rooms, etc. so before that lil 20 minute Roche machines in our STAT labs….
When ‘they’ came out with free FLU shots for us HC workers in 2003, I began learning about the lies and dangers behind vaccines…so when along came the fakedemic and a jab, and of course the asymptomatic PCR testing, I was on ‘alert’…the rest is history, however, never stop researching all of this. Cheers to continued learning, informing many others as possible, and surviving! 😊 God Bless!
I was - and am - continually amazed myself. In my experience, the majority of my colleagues forgot everything they learned, abandoning inquiry and critical thinking in favor of going along with whatever they were told was truth. It's been a constant source of anger and frustration for me, as I've tried to point out to them what they should already see and understand. I seem to be the only one among my colleagues who understands the nature and applications of NAAT methodologies, questioning their use as "diagnostics." Some saw bits of truth, but didn't carry the thinking through to logical conclusions. Or didn't care enough to question.
I don't really have a lot of friends lately 🤔but my colleagues at work weren't surprised, they pretty much expected it, for Halloween I donned a tin foil hat.
Good parallels with 9/11, which I appreciate. I think there’s wide variation with regard to Covid testing, based on locale. Some areas seem to have stuck with it, whereas in other places it’s become unusual and even rare. I’m sure there are reasons. That said, the government/propaganda regime for PCR and lateral flow testing remains. That edifice definitely needs a takedown. Too many are tired of talking about it, which is part of the trap.
Well some do believe there are do-overs, problem is you do-over as the weird looking goldfish trailing a goldfish turd around the Chinese restauraunt lobby fish tank.
Dear Sarah: Thank GOODNESS you’re not succinct! 😎 This post includes the necessary detailed overview and links for further investigation for those who haven’t been following the multiple rabbits into their burrows from the beginning 🐇 (cute little fellers, ain’t they?) Cheers to you…
The United States is the only country that requires shoe removal and are strict about liquid requirements. Flew out of Tijuana Airport the other day which is right on the border and minutes from DT San Diego. It was like going back to 2000 with extremely light security. the same thing applies to Canadian Airports where many domestic flights fly over USA. Toronto, Windsor, Montreal and Vancouver airports are also virtually on US border With much lighter security requiremenst.
The other countries dropped the pretense. They watched Peace War, and 9/11, or jim Corbett or Richard Gage. There never were terrorists any more than there was a pandemic. But to stop screening for shoe bombs and liquid would be to admit the truth
Brilliant work Sarah... Gone are the days where you had something, were a bit sick, and no one cared so much... Maybe just steering clear of someone really snotty and coughing, but that was it...
No paranoia
There used to be stories of flus ripping through nursing homes and high casualties, but it was routinely ignored as people got on with life,went to concerts, the cinema, pubs, clubs etc ..
I'm not sure how everyone became so conditioned to wearing masks, 6 foot rule, locked down, cops acting like stormtroopers (Victoria, Australia in particular)...well I am sure actually, it was the repetition and mind programming propaganda on TV, radio etc... Turning people into freaked out germophobes...
Thanks for unraveling the hoax... Saw a short 3 min video unraveling the timeline, you can see it was all fake, and much like other things they were just TOO EAGER to launch the op, you can see it was all bullsh!t...
They "need you" to believe the next plandemic is real to fulfill their fantasy.
Will it be the 5G popp'n eyeballs out or the DEW's & HAARP causing destruction in a myriad of ways (fires, hurricanes, tornados, earthquakes etc.) for the next lockdown and enforce the Big One.
We Americans just need to admit we've been overtaken... the revolution has already been won by the fascist commie globalists that hate Americans. It is pathetic to learn what we have had to put up with for so long. The enemy is in charge now. Media - Governments - Bio-fascists - Border Pedophiile Trafficking and Foreign Enemy Invasion (at 300,000/month) - Fabricated Narratives about White Supremacists - Government Indoctrination Schools Brainwashing Compliant Mass-Mindsets - Hijacked Fake Elections - AND BULLSHIT REHEARSED SATANIC RESPONSES IN UNITY...and on-and-on. Americans need to stop with the "Reality Avoidance Disorder" mass-psychosis - and admit it - ALL OF IT - not just get used to the enemy being in charge... make the decision to resist, be strong and do it like your life depends on it because it does. MORE EXTINCTION REBELLION!!!
Agree with everything here Sarah.........One major point in my eyes (the event that triggered me into believing the Sars Cov 2/ Covid was EVIL bullshit) was the rubber stamping of the Cromen/Drosden PCR test method within 24 hours by the corrupt to the core World Health Organisation in late January 2020. It was adopted as the worldwide test WITHOUT any method validation (a prerequisite of any test method) and at a time when ONLY 6 out of nearly 8 BILLION had died of this 'novel' virus. The test was utter garbage and simply but increasing the cycles you could GUARANTEE a positive result regardless of how healthy/sick the subject was.
Why was there so much haste in adopting the method?? The WHO then came out with their 'test,test,test' instruction and slowly but surely 'cases' arose. These 'cases' were then used by Imbecile College, sorry meant to say Imperial College in their 'models'. Models that would shame a backward year 10 pupil may I add!! Imperial College, and that complete bought off idiot 'Prof' Neil Ferguson, hadn't got any 'prediction' remotely close in nearly 2 decades, so why were they used? Perhaps the funding of the Kill, sorry Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation had something to do with it??
Sarah, thank you for this. I agree 100% that fake PCR "tests" are the lynchpin. Serology-based antigen and antibody "testing", also. I have spent SO. MUCH. TIME. over the past 4 years telling co-workers, family, friends, and total strangers that the tests are absolutely meaningless BS. Even people who have awareness of the truth re: the “pandemic” still believe the results are credible. I highly recommend PANDA, as well. It was data analyses and other information from PANDA in 2020 that really opened my eyes to what was actually going on.
As a medical laboratory scientist employed in hospital labs, forced to perform rapid NAAT methodologies to “diagnose” SARS-CoV-2 for more than 2 years, I was stressed to the point of breaking. Performing those tests meant I was helping to falsely elevate “covid” case numbers, and if any of the patients with a worthless “positive” result died for any reason whatsoever, the COD would be “covid.”
Adding to my frustration and anger was the fact that none of my colleagues - most of whom had also studied and performed PCR and other NAAT methodologies - seemed to grasp why it was a misapplication of the technology. I was constantly talking about the non-diagnostic nature of PCR, not to mention the high threshold cycles being used. I was met with blank stares or shrugs every time I pointed out that Ct (threshold cycle) is inversely proportional to viral load. Or that finding the target nucleic acid sequence (if that is what the primers were even designed for) in the sample and then amplifying it to detectable levels is not synonymous with infection. Even though I did not trust the WHO at the time, I pointed to the guidance for medical professionals issued in early 2021 urging providers to consider PCR "results" in the context of signs and symptoms, as well as cautioning against high threshold cycles. It was only half-truths, but I figured if the WHO was saying even this much, maybe I could get people's attention. (I read the guidance on the WHO website, but can no longer find it. It was probably memory-holed. They also said very early on that asymptomatic presentation of respiratory viral infections is extremely rare, before completely backtracking and flip-flopping. No one remembers that bit, do they?) No matter what I pointed out, my colleagues were all convinced of the validity of the results.
Some nights I was so overwhelmed by the volume of samples I’d receive for fake testing that my anger would overflow and I’d start throwing the specimen vials across the lab. The stress from early 2020 through Fall of 2021 was destroying me on every level.
Then I could no longer practice my profession in NY, because I refused to be injected. On very short notice, I found a job in another state and relocated 1,000+ miles from home, family, and friends in the hope that I could remain employed, though I had no guarantees regarding mandates. (Shortly after arriving in my new state of residence, the CMS "vaccine" mandate came down, affecting everyone in healthcare throughout the country. Then I had to play the exemption game, but I did not even have that option in NY.) The first two hospital systems I worked for also compelled me to do "covid testing", but I could not afford to lose another job, especially now that I lived someplace I had never been to before, and where I knew no one. I cried pretty much every day and lost a lot of sleep, because I was part of it all, even though it was unwillingly.
That was only a part of the ordeal, however. I can’t describe the anguish I felt as a blood banker, knowing I was facilitating the transfusion of tainted blood to those who chose not to be injected. Transfusion services was my passion, and I had a job offer to work exclusively in the blood bank at Mayo Clinic, but my offer was withdrawn when I refused, once again, to be injected with a deadly, gene-altering bioweapon. It was a blessing in disguise, though, because I could not have continued as a blood banker with a clear conscience. I also know now that Mayo, like other large healthcare systems, is extremely DEI/ESG. I spoke with a lawyer who had successfully sued Mayo to get alternative treatments for patients with a covid diagnosis. He said Mayo was using the shot mandate to weed out conservative - or dissident - individuals. And, like pretty much all of "healthcare" now, they are deeply invested in the disgusting profitability of "covid."
In late 2022, I finally found employment that requires neither “covid testing” nor blood banking so I don’t disintegrate from the unbearable strain of helping perpetuate the deadly deception. I have changed jobs 3 times in 2.5 years, not including the withdrawal of Mayo's job offer. Since I work in a captured "industry" I am mostly surrounded by the duped. With less job stress, I am able to focus more on getting real data and factual information to colleagues. Most days, it's still an uphill battle, but I can't stop fighting. I don't know if I'll ever be free of the guilt I feel for having been part of the machine for as long as I was.
Thank you for this. I am sorry to hear how difficult this ordeal has been for you.
I admire your strength…and honesty. It says a lot about your character. The world could use more people like you. There are so many people that are financially pinned into very uncomfortable positions.
I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about this.
Most everyone on “this side” (although I hate reducing the situation like this) has participated in some way, and to some extent, despite disagreement.
I wore masks and tested because my clients requested this.
I allowed my children to be tested and forced to wear masks to attend school.
I will never forgive myself for this. Ever.
I eventually pulled them out and we homeschool now, but this took far longer than it should have because I just didn’t know how I could do it. I’m a single mom (I have a partner, but he also has two kids of his own). I own my own business and am almost entirely financially responsible for my three boys. I consented to a lot of things I didn’t agree with, and frankly knew were wrong, but I at the end of the day I have mouths to feed….which is a compelling motivator.
At the same time, due to the same circumstances, it’s very easy for me to say that I will absolutely not inject myself or my children with this bioweapon. At least easier than it is for a lot of other people.
Nobody will fire me. I might lose a client or two, but I’m not going to lose my entire income. Because I own my own business I had the flexibility to rework some things, got creative, and figured out homeschooling. I realize this is not the case for most people. Due to many factors that I won’t go into now, life now requires two incomes, particularly when children are involved. This aspect of the situation is heartbreaking, as I see it clearly baked into the recipe over the course of many years.
Even if spouses and children are not involved, people have to eat…and once you factor in the credit and finance situation, it’s not hard to see how the bind happened - and is happening.
I spoke to a nurse in my grandmother’s memory care facility, and with tears in her eyes she recounted the injections that were given, and the deaths that followed. This was echoed to me just this morning. A client had an almost identical conversation with a nurse at her father’s facility. It’s truly heartbreaking…and unspeakable evil.
Anyway…all that to say that I admire your honesty. I think a lot of people just find it easier to say they agree. It takes a huge amount of courage and humility to speak the truth.
Thank you.
I greatly appreciate your kind words and empathy. There’s even more to my story, but it is not unique, though details vary. Too many of us have suffered in so many terrible ways.
I am sorry for what you have gone through as well. Even for those who did not get injected or outright lose a job, the psychological impact of masking, “testing”, etc., is profound, especially when children are involved. Throw in some economic threat and legitimate fear about actual survival - it’s truly horrific. I also submitted to masking at work and more, though after a while I refused to keep up appearances when my manager left for the day. (She was quick to pounce on me for any infraction, and I had a bit of a track record of not being a meek rule-follower.) I left the mask dangling from one ear, because I was tired of feeling like I’d pass out while hustling around a busy, short-staffed lab. Colleagues remained masked, but weirdly didn’t complain.
Not having children, some things were easier for me. Still, faced with the inability to continue working in my home state, I began having panic attacks. I didn’t have enough information then, and didn’t know what to do. I pretty much ran on instinct and gut-feelings when deciding where to move to. It was brutally difficult and full-on terrifying to uproot my life and leave the only home I ever desired, to go live in a state I’d never set foot in, with no assurance of continued employment, but I had only myself, my partner, and our dogs to consider.
In those earlier days, there was still much I did not know about all of this. I was far from seeing the big picture. Somehow, I just knew there were certain things I could not do or accept. I’m not sure I can really take credit for that. It just WAS. My full enlightenment was a process of years, so my resistance grew the more I came to understand, but there were clearly also compromises. That’s what I have a difficult time with. I’m thankful I found it impossible to fully submit, and that I tried to resist within the system, so to speak. As you’ve mentioned, there are certainly compelling motivators that induce us to sometimes go along with things we disagree with or that we know are wrong. I can accept that for others, but struggle to accept it for myself. I wish I had seen things for what they really were and had bucked it all from Day One.
Out of the 30+ scientists in that hospital lab, I was 1 of only 5 who did not rush to get injected (to proudly display “vaccination” stickers on badges). Of the 5 of us who did not want it at all, only 2 of us held out to the bitter end. My dear friend, in his early 30’s with a wife and three young children, caved under pressure to save his job. After getting the first, he was distraught, angry, resentful. He railed about feeling backed into a corner. I was heartbroken for him. He didn’t want the second one, but caved again when faced with loss of employment. Shortly after that, the cardiac symptoms began manifesting. Then last year he told me that another of our colleagues who gave in - in her early 20’s and newly married - had conceived and lost the baby late in the pregnancy.
My partner, who was employed by a large Medicare and Medicaid insurance provider, was also subject to a “vaccine” mandate, despite working remotely. He talked of taking the shot to save his job. I had no facts to offer in August/September 2021, so I threatened to leave him if he took it. I would not actually have done it, but I was desperate to stop him. He believed I would do it, so he did not submit to the mandate. We relocated together and nearly a year of unemployment followed for him after we moved, but when I was able to start telling him about the devastating consequences of the injections, he was so glad I stopped him.
Though my current position is less stressful, I work for a company that helps perpetuate the covid scam, and that has profited in the billions from fake testing. At this point, it’s all but impossible to be in this profession and not be part of the system. As long as I’m stuck in it, I look for “insider” information that might be helpful in some way, hence my attempt to remain anonymous. I chose my profession to help others while indulging my love of science. Instead, conventional medicine in conjunction with pharma rarely does anything other than harm. If it was at all possible, I would start over in a new profession that would allow me to legitimately help others find true health and wellness.
Sorry, that’s a whole lot. Discovering the dissident community, sharing information, resources, and war stories with others who see the truth - this is what saved my sanity. I hope sharing my story here and there can help others in some way. I’m still trying to figure out if there’s something more I should be doing beyond being an alert, responsible citizen and trying to impart truth to others in my daily life. I’m glad to have found your stack, and I appreciate the work you put into this critical fight for our very survival. ♥️
Thank you for your honesty and courage to post this narrative of your life these last four years. I'm a retired MD and it's been obvious to me, almost from the beginning, that this was a fraud and hoax, later to understand that it was an elaborate deception to enslave and murder. Your comments are an important commentary on life inside the culling apparatus. It helps those of us on the outside to know there is resistance and awareness inside the culling machine.
Thank you so much for this. I pray that I can be of use from within. I keep trying to get through to colleagues, often to no avail, but I am seeing progress with a progressive colleague who took the shots and had her young children injected. (She is also one to speak disparagingly about those she refers to as "conspiracy theorists" - having no idea I am one of those people.)
After building relationship and trust with her, I began slowly feeding her data about the shots, as well as other frauds such as "climate change." After a recent share about the mounting evidence of harm, she decided not to let her kids receive boosters. She's also connecting what I tell her with illness and deaths among her friends and acquaintances, as well as her own increasing health issues. She gladly accepted info on spike protein detox. It's all baby steps.
This is my life.
Easing into it when and where I can.
I do think that my influence has helped save some kiddos from being injected. In fact, I know that it has. And that feels successful.
Ish.
Because there are plenty that I couldn't help. Their parents were and are brainwashed. It breaks my heart to hear about these innocent little bodies, with no choice in the matter, getting injected with poison that will impact them forever. This part feels like failure.
I'm so thankful for people like you, Sarah, who were able to get ahead of it in some instances, at least. Every child spared is important, though it grieves you - and me - that any have been harmed and killed.
Until the moment she said she would call her ex about not getting boosters for the kids, I didn't know they'd been injected. I wanted to cry. She still believes the "moving at the speed of science" malarkey as far as the deadly fallout. Like it's just the price to be paid for "doing the best we could with what we had to work with at the time." I'm nowhere near revealing truth in that regard. It frequently feels like I'm just spinning my wheels, the damage is already done. Then I remind myself that I don't know the future, nor what my words and actions may effect down the line. I'm taking it one opportunity at a time.
Baby steps forward is better than many of us are doing! Your work is very important and your patient approach is certainly far better than I can manage, as patience is not always a trait my wife, for example, applies to me. My experience, at least, is that one is most successful as you are doing, feeding bits of truth to what may be a receptive mind, trying not to push too hard, knowing that the truth is something people must arrive at by drawing own conclusions. Oftentimes, I believe, once an individual realizes that the authorities have knowingly propagated a big lie, all the rest falls into place pretty quickly.
"knowing that the truth is something people must arrive at by drawing own conclusions"
You nailed it right there. If I tried to give too much, too quickly to some people, their minds would reject it all. It feels surreal and overwhelming to me at times, despite researching and assimilating information for years. With fellow scientists, I have to know my audience. I try to lay a foundation first, so they understand the priority I place on good data and that I invest a lot of time in research and analysis. Then, there's a greater chance they will trust me, knowing I am passionate about science as a process of discovery and increasing understanding, as well as witnessing my demonstrated competence. But, I also fear there is not enough time left to make a difference as the op advances. I will not stop trying, though.
Liking this comment is not enough and i dont have the word to say how i feel for you and your situation....needless to say you are one of the good ones. 🙏❤️
Thank you for saying that, truly. Many of us have awful stories, it’s only the details that vary. I’m just grateful that I wasn’t among the brainwashed.
I can totally relate, Leithian, as a fellow med tech having gone thru this as well! I did the molecular testing as well as work in the blood bank (now since retired early). In our hospital system in Colorado we were afforded the ‘religious exemption’ for which we had to write a novel, unlike previous years’ FLU exemptions where all that was needed was your name, lawson number, and manager’s name on a form (and forced masking/discrimination from Dec-March 31)…. BUT in addition, we then had to ‘test’ twice a week for ‘covid’, nasal swabs…totally gave me the creeps putting an ETO sterilized swab up my nose over and over again. Then late January they did a ‘pause’ in testing for 2 weeks, mysteriously not restarting testing, and never revealed to us the reason!!! 😑 Hallelujah!
As I continue to do my good deed of donating my type O blood, I wonder why I am asked each time whether I got the jab or not, and what do they really do with my donation (of pureblood)….
Sorry for the grief you’ve been through and thankful that you wrote this up. I just happen to have come across this particular substack (having seen Sasha Latypova’s comment about it). Hang in there and stay strong! You rock!!!
DL, thank you for your kind comment. I think there were not enough of us who knew something was wrong and resisted. You are the first to share similar misgivings regarding the testing and blood banking. I honestly thought the mental and emotional anguish would destroy me. Thanks so much for the encouragement, and for being a blood donor! If someone started a donation system for “unvaxxed” blood, I’d work that blood bank in a heartbeat. Would you believe I miss doing antibody ID? Always the challenges and puzzles in transfusion services. I really miss it.
There is a place and I signed up as a donor and pay a monthly fee so I can be recipient if need be. Safe Blood. Site is www.safeblood.com I think.
I will look into that, thank you for the info!
Hahahah, they terrify us all about blood bank! I think we were literally told at university that we would kill someone, like it was a fact. I was scared to do it, found out I was great at it, and ended up loving it. So challenging and rewarding. Problem-solving and critical-thinking are must haves. (Maybe why some of us who thrived in blood bank didn’t fall for the propaganda.) I’m glad they instilled that fear, though, because in this profession there’s no greater risk of actually killing your patient.
You had the opportunity to do cool stuff. Kudos to you. I hope you’re enjoying retirement. 🤓
Yes, I believe it (missing ABY ID). Even during my internship in MN I had the ‘fear of blood bank’ instilled in me and ever since found it to be the most challenging and most rewarding section of the lab to work. I was relegated to BB (and Hemo, Coag) since most techs could not handle it and subsequently got asked to learn/work Flow Cytometry for about 10 years which I loved! Did a stint in a molecular lab in 2006 and so learned about the shortcomings of PCR…at a time using a thermal cycler/clean rooms, etc. so before that lil 20 minute Roche machines in our STAT labs….
When ‘they’ came out with free FLU shots for us HC workers in 2003, I began learning about the lies and dangers behind vaccines…so when along came the fakedemic and a jab, and of course the asymptomatic PCR testing, I was on ‘alert’…the rest is history, however, never stop researching all of this. Cheers to continued learning, informing many others as possible, and surviving! 😊 God Bless!
I'm always amazed there aren't more lab personnel who concluded the same as you. Nor spoke out about it.
I was - and am - continually amazed myself. In my experience, the majority of my colleagues forgot everything they learned, abandoning inquiry and critical thinking in favor of going along with whatever they were told was truth. It's been a constant source of anger and frustration for me, as I've tried to point out to them what they should already see and understand. I seem to be the only one among my colleagues who understands the nature and applications of NAAT methodologies, questioning their use as "diagnostics." Some saw bits of truth, but didn't carry the thinking through to logical conclusions. Or didn't care enough to question.
UWB (ultrawide band radiation) can track our location down to less than 30 centimeters/ 1 foot.
That's why ditching our phones is the first step to not being on the gene radar, at least it can't hurt:
https://romanshapoval.substack.com/i/140673931/iphone-implants
Ditched yesterday!
Sirka, that's amazing! Can you tell me more? Did you throw it in the garbage and have a party? What did those around you say?
I don't really have a lot of friends lately 🤔but my colleagues at work weren't surprised, they pretty much expected it, for Halloween I donned a tin foil hat.
Great succinct summary, Sarah, as usual. .
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Muchas gracias, Guy.
Over the target.
PCR was NEVER meant as a diagnostic test.
It indeed was the lynchpin for finding Covid in well, everything and making it a star (at the expense of the poor flu).
Motorcycle accidents, pieces of furniture, you name it, you got it.
Good parallels with 9/11, which I appreciate. I think there’s wide variation with regard to Covid testing, based on locale. Some areas seem to have stuck with it, whereas in other places it’s become unusual and even rare. I’m sure there are reasons. That said, the government/propaganda regime for PCR and lateral flow testing remains. That edifice definitely needs a takedown. Too many are tired of talking about it, which is part of the trap.
Well nuts. Coulda really used this article 4 years ago.
Hell, I would like a do over on my entire life.
FFS I've been part of the big lie as well all alive.
Well some do believe there are do-overs, problem is you do-over as the weird looking goldfish trailing a goldfish turd around the Chinese restauraunt lobby fish tank.
Dear Sarah: Thank GOODNESS you’re not succinct! 😎 This post includes the necessary detailed overview and links for further investigation for those who haven’t been following the multiple rabbits into their burrows from the beginning 🐇 (cute little fellers, ain’t they?) Cheers to you…
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Thank you, michael 😘
The United States is the only country that requires shoe removal and are strict about liquid requirements. Flew out of Tijuana Airport the other day which is right on the border and minutes from DT San Diego. It was like going back to 2000 with extremely light security. the same thing applies to Canadian Airports where many domestic flights fly over USA. Toronto, Windsor, Montreal and Vancouver airports are also virtually on US border With much lighter security requiremenst.
The other countries dropped the pretense. They watched Peace War, and 9/11, or jim Corbett or Richard Gage. There never were terrorists any more than there was a pandemic. But to stop screening for shoe bombs and liquid would be to admit the truth
That's cause we're all MF'n terrorist's.
Brilliant work Sarah... Gone are the days where you had something, were a bit sick, and no one cared so much... Maybe just steering clear of someone really snotty and coughing, but that was it...
No paranoia
There used to be stories of flus ripping through nursing homes and high casualties, but it was routinely ignored as people got on with life,went to concerts, the cinema, pubs, clubs etc ..
I'm not sure how everyone became so conditioned to wearing masks, 6 foot rule, locked down, cops acting like stormtroopers (Victoria, Australia in particular)...well I am sure actually, it was the repetition and mind programming propaganda on TV, radio etc... Turning people into freaked out germophobes...
Thanks for unraveling the hoax... Saw a short 3 min video unraveling the timeline, you can see it was all fake, and much like other things they were just TOO EAGER to launch the op, you can see it was all bullsh!t...
https://open.substack.com/pub/informedchoice/p/the-covid-timeline-youve-probably?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=tymb5
Thanks for the hard work pulling this all together Sarah.
Because Zev. 😂
The nose tests from the get go were accepted so weirdly fast. It's a blur of bull shit looking back.
The Disappearing Flu always reminds me of a Rita Rudner routine that went something a lot like:
You remember in Kindergarten...you'd mix water and flour...and you'd get a kind of paste or glue?
Later you'd do the same thing, but add some sugar...and you'd get cake...so...
What happened to the glue?
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Start around 25:00 and spend 5 minutes with Dr. Merritt on what the PCR tests were really testing for. https://rumble.com/v3xtp7s-lee-merritt-md-live....html?mref=6zof&mc=dgip3&utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=The+Medical+Rebel&ep=2
don’t neglect killing protocols and iatrogenics
They "need you" to believe the next plandemic is real to fulfill their fantasy.
Will it be the 5G popp'n eyeballs out or the DEW's & HAARP causing destruction in a myriad of ways (fires, hurricanes, tornados, earthquakes etc.) for the next lockdown and enforce the Big One.
Martial Law.
Game on.
We Americans just need to admit we've been overtaken... the revolution has already been won by the fascist commie globalists that hate Americans. It is pathetic to learn what we have had to put up with for so long. The enemy is in charge now. Media - Governments - Bio-fascists - Border Pedophiile Trafficking and Foreign Enemy Invasion (at 300,000/month) - Fabricated Narratives about White Supremacists - Government Indoctrination Schools Brainwashing Compliant Mass-Mindsets - Hijacked Fake Elections - AND BULLSHIT REHEARSED SATANIC RESPONSES IN UNITY...and on-and-on. Americans need to stop with the "Reality Avoidance Disorder" mass-psychosis - and admit it - ALL OF IT - not just get used to the enemy being in charge... make the decision to resist, be strong and do it like your life depends on it because it does. MORE EXTINCTION REBELLION!!!
Agree with everything here Sarah.........One major point in my eyes (the event that triggered me into believing the Sars Cov 2/ Covid was EVIL bullshit) was the rubber stamping of the Cromen/Drosden PCR test method within 24 hours by the corrupt to the core World Health Organisation in late January 2020. It was adopted as the worldwide test WITHOUT any method validation (a prerequisite of any test method) and at a time when ONLY 6 out of nearly 8 BILLION had died of this 'novel' virus. The test was utter garbage and simply but increasing the cycles you could GUARANTEE a positive result regardless of how healthy/sick the subject was.
Why was there so much haste in adopting the method?? The WHO then came out with their 'test,test,test' instruction and slowly but surely 'cases' arose. These 'cases' were then used by Imbecile College, sorry meant to say Imperial College in their 'models'. Models that would shame a backward year 10 pupil may I add!! Imperial College, and that complete bought off idiot 'Prof' Neil Ferguson, hadn't got any 'prediction' remotely close in nearly 2 decades, so why were they used? Perhaps the funding of the Kill, sorry Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation had something to do with it??
I remember feeling aghast at the audacity of that guy watching that Belgian video back in 2020 by which time so many people had got the Covids: https://robmyjob.bandcamp.com/track/i-got-the-covids
https://open.substack.com/pub/informedchoice/p/the-covid-timeline-youve-probably?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=b7m4j Nicely done. On the Panda front, this underlines your message I hope